Fall 09 Fashion

Fall 09's fashion is going to rock!

Michael Kors

Chen Juanhong

Balenciaga

Chanel

Hermes

Christian Louboutin

Nicholas Kirkwood

Ralph Lauren

Vera Wang

sur la vie et l'amour

...Today's weather is beautiful. I feel the loveliness of fall trinkle on cheeks and it just makes me so happy.
A great conversation with numéro de ma grande amie cinq :) left me pondering as I fell asleep last night. Thoughts of relationships, friendships, life, the future. In many ways we may not realize, but as humans, we spend so much of our lives trying to please this person and trying to impress that person. Being this person for these people and trying to fix and figure out life's entire anatomy. We adapt to life around us instead of letting life adapt to us. I have learned that no matter what standards we may try to mount up to and no matter how much we may try to accomodate our lives and the people in it. No matter the title  or abbreviations following our name, at the end of the day, we can only be ourselves, and it is very important that we remember that virtue and remain true to that person. What can we be for life if we lose focus of who we are?
Others and myself suffer from the urge to want to fix and know everything.
But, sometimes we just have to let go and take it one small step at a time and make each moment indelible. The beauty in life, although sometimes argued, is not knowing, but figuring it out along this great journey and excepting "nothing less than we deserve" .

After certain circumstances, I placed a wall around my feelings and my heart because I knew that all I ever wanted was to be happy and feelings and heart were too easily hurt. Everytime I loved, I hurt. Everytime I felt, I fell.

...My mother shined her light. I quote her, "When you allow yourself to love, you must accept the fact that you will be hurt because no one is perfect.You must accept that at times they will let you down because we are only human. And you must accept that there may come a time that you will have to let go. But you must also learn to forgive and have patience. Never forget to look in the mirror first. And when you find "the one"...you will know...because it will all be worth it."

No one could have put it more beautifully. Not Eienstien. Not Locke.

She taught me that it's okay to love and it's okay to hurt. It's a beautiful thing when you can find someone who is truly willing to ride the rollercoaster of life with you and never, ever let go. Someone that compliments you and not tear you down, but build you up. Someone that will listen forever. Finding someone that, even when the music stops, they never stop dancing. Its a beautiful thing to grow old with someone and share life's most promised moments.

It is the icing on the cake. The sprinkles. "What is it to gain everything if we have no one to share it with?"

Today is a good day :)

The Strawberry Patch

He and I had so much fun in the strawberry patch that day. I size of those berries had me amazed.He had the tendency to continuously pick small ones and I kept telling him.." Get the BIG ones.." So he'd say.." Well if I get the big ones my crate will fill up to fast and I won't have as many. So I will pick small ones." He was completely right.

So, as he picked little ones, I walked behind him eating big ones. :)

& he was the bravest.

Tonight's Cuppycakes :)

... I forgot to put the baking cups in the pan.. But they worked perfectly and were funfettilicious:)

Meet Mimi

Our newest addition to the family. We named her Mimi and she's absolutely spoiled. She is so full of life and spunk...

the man in my life...

He is sweetest thing ever! My little brother is my everything. Leaving for school last week he told me that I better have a good day at school and I better come back with a surprise for him.

He fills my life with joy.

Capturing the moments again

 I was inspired by a great blogger to began photography again sooo..It's time to invest in a new camera...

CuppyCakes- My sinful weakness

I made cupcakes...they were delicious

Team Hoyt & Baby Elliot

I was inspired by this story today..This father wanted to give his son a better life..give him a life that went against his ability to walk or speak. This is the story of the IronMan competition that they completed...Amazing



I also found this video.. Elliot wasn't suppose to live to birth. For awhile I wasn't sure exactly why I wanted to be nurse..A Neonatal Nurse...Now I know..

Stewie, You're the best!

Olivia: You are the weakest link, goodbye. (laughter)


Stewie: Ha ha ha! Oh gosh that's funny! That's really funny! Do you write your own material? Do you? Because that is so fresh. You are the weakest link goodbye. You know, I've, I've never heard anyone make that joke before. Hmm. You're the first. I've never heard anyone reference, reference that outside the program before. Because that's what she says on the show right? Isn't it? You are the weakest link goodbye. And, and yet you've taken that and used it out of context to insult me in this everyday situation. God what a clever, smart girl you must be, to come up with a joke like that all by yourself. That's so fresh too. Any, any Titanic jokes you want to throw at me too as long as we're hitting these phenomena at the height of their popularity. God you're so funny!

My Bucket List

Thought I would share my Bucket List with the world :)

Europe
See an Alvin Ailey Dance Company performance

Paris

Milan

Perform a ballet

New York

Get a Kanoli in Central Park

Be a ballerina
California

Visit a lighthouse

Selena's memorial and museum

Record a song

Meet "Carrie Bradshaw"

Build a Home

Get Married

Have Children

Sky Dive

Ski

Play in the rain
Niagra Falls

Laugh until I can't breath
Make someone laugh until they can't breath
Grand Canyon

Own the blue Manolo Blahniks

Ride a horse
Ride a horse on the beach

See "Revelations" by Alvin Ailey

Be a Neonatologist
Dine at Cafe de la Paix

Graduate from College
Walk the Great Wall

China

Kenya

Pyrimids of Egypt

Pet a Dolphin

Love myself
Visit the Colosseum

Taj Mahal

The Northern Lights

Meet Beyonce
Scuba Dive

Machu Pichhu

The Great Lakes

India

Stay a night in Lake Palace Udaipur

White Water Rafting

Go to an NBA game with floor seats

Amsterdam

Kimora

Barcelona

Ride in a horse driven carriage

Attend the Kentucky Derby

Witness a miracle

See daddy again

If I am to complete this, I will have lived a priceless life

Main Entry: hon·es·ty

2 a : fairness and straightforwardness of conduct b : adherence to the facts : sincerity

So I have been pondering on the true facts of being honest.
Should we be honest at all cost regardless of (really wish the girl next to me would stop all of her profane indecencies and..shutup..anyways) hurting others and the possibilty of tearing things apart?
Or should we hold some things in? Should we not say that because, I know it will mess things up or I know that it will hurt your feelings.
I believe in being honest at all cost. I believe in expressing my true opinions and telling you exactly how I feel.
But I also believe in unselfishness. And in all actuality, Im a "softy" and I love making people happy.
Should be really compromise our happinest for the sake of their feelings?

Hypothetically

Lyfe Jennings

What if I broke our monogamous agreement
What if I told you I lied but didn't mean it

What if my one mistake
had the potential to break

up our happy home

Would you wanna know

What if I confessed it and though she didn't mean nothing since it happened

You're thinking about leaving

What if I suppressed it

and made a vow to never mess with another

Is it cool for me to smother the facts

Is it cool for me to cover my tracks

if you'd never know

Or would me not being honest hurt you more

Chorus:]

Hypothetically of course

Are there some things better left unsaid

Or would you wanna know instead

Hypothetically of course

Are there some wars not worth fighting

Some tears not worth crying

Hypothetically of course

What if this happened to you

what would you want me to do

[2nd Verse:]

Well what if I told you that I had a confession

What if I said 4 years ago when we were arguing

he came to comfort me and I wound up pregnant

And I just can't say for sure
if the baby's yours

What if I confessed it and it turns out not to be your baby after you get tested

And it destroys what we've been blessed with

What if I suppress it 'cause technically you're the baby's daddy anyway

Is it wrong for me to want you to stay

Would you rather have me tear you away

From the only family you know
Or is this just too big a secret to keep it on the low
[Chorus/Bridge:]

Would you wanna know

Would you wanna know

Tell me what you'd do

Tell me what you'd do

Would you walk away or would you stay

Would you wanna know

Would you wanna leave the past behind us

Or are you afraid that one day it might find us

Would it even matter

Could it even matter

Should it even matter

D- Day June 6, 1944

Thinking of D-Day for some reason. It truly aches my heart to remember the memoirs of our country and all we've been through.

My heart goes out.

"Bon Appetit!"

L'essence de son spirt est belle. Pas de soucis. Pas de soucis. Vivre sa vie à son plein potentiel. Une aura de jaune. Elle est Mello Joy

...The company of Me

Sitting in starbucks... Chanel flats, pearls, and a plain white top by no one. Tall caramel frappé, one pump of hazelnut and a warmed fudge brownie... Creating my own little indelible(I absolutely adore that word) moment as I enjoy the company of...me.
.. Classic :)

I was thinking, we get so drowned in the Infinite race of the world, the calamity and confusion of everything... We forget how truly special we are. We forget to love ourselves before everything else. We forget that we need time too. We forget how really beAutiful life is without all of it's accessories!... I love these moments. I fall in love with me all over again!

"Road Less Traveled"

...I have loved this poem since forever...

Road Less Traveled

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth

Then took the other as just as fair

And having perhaps the better claim

Because it was grassy and wanted wear

Though as for that, the passing there

Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet, knowing how way leads onto way

I doubted if I should ever come back

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence

Two roads diverged in a wood

And I took the one less traveled by

And that has made all the difference

-Robert Frost

Fantabulous

An inspired look from Carrie Bradshaw..Love it!! I am so investing in this outfit!

Sex and The City

I have been truly in love with Sex and The City since if first surfaced and i believe that there is so much depth to these four women that often goes unnoticed. They have been each others back bone. Each others world.
Charlotte! Everyone should have a Charlotte in their lives. She has the role of this beautiful strong women with a great successful life and in the end finds true love. I admire Charlotte's strength and loyalty to her friends, life, and family. Recalling from the movie when Big bailed on Carrie for the wedding, Charlotte stepped in with no questions, no barriers, and completely took control. When she grabbed and embraced Carrie in the street, you can't help but feel all of her sencerity for her friend!
Samantha! She is the edgiest, boldest women I know. She is the "Mother" friend that always gives you the truth and teaches you how to, no matter what the circumstances, love yourself first!
Miranda! She holds it all together. She puts the realism into the story
but, our favorite, Carrie! She is raw, innocent, and adorable. She is the cinderella. She is the icing. Not forgetting to mention...her style ROCKS!...classic and fabulous. Carrie makes you reach deep inside yourself and pull out the truths. Love, heartbreak, happinest, perfect imperfection.
...Their friendship and their story is amazing! Can't wait for Part Deux!

So... I just finsihed another novel, Falling In Love With Natassia by Anna Monardo, and was heart- gripping. So much heart and so much realism in this novel that you can definetly relate to! Now I'm beginning Beautiful Boy by David Sheff. A story of a father dealing with his drug addicted son. This should be good.

Yes...Let's talk about love...I wonder why exactly do we get those exasperating feelings... That tingly greatness. We seek the coalesce of another. Our smiles began to shine brighter than the nebulas and stars.. I guess it's sort of the pursuit of happiness.. Do we ever ...really find what we're looking for?... Damn, I think I'm afraid of love
...friendship is the foundation of love and i've realized that every failed relationship, somewhere down the line, lost that friendship. No one strives to maintain that friendship anymore. They get so caught up in trying to change the other. They forget that everything they're trying to change was there when they fell in love with that other person. We become more of parent figures than partners. "Where are you? What are you doing? Who are you with? Its 7pm what are you doing? Who is that? Don't do that?"....ever hear those questions a lot? It should be more of a,"Hey sweetheart, Im going to___ with____ and I will be back at ____ and if anything comes up,of course I'll call."..." Great, have a good time see you later." ... Problem is, there was no trust. and that's where everything falls apart.

I want to find someone who remembers that at the end of the day..."...this is my bestfriend..." Think about friendship. In real friendship, there is ultimate trust. There is no judging. There is understanding. When disagreements occur, "We need to talk about this." There is honesty. Great memories are created. You never leave the other behind. You laugh until you cry. You dance until you fall.----And that is what Love should be.

Let It Go

...okay...I am taking a step back now...ive become to emotionally involved. It is time to let it all go and go back to the care free me. I put my easels down and i am no longer painting that beautiful picture of my future. Tomorrow may never come. I didn't go to class this morning. I really didn't have it in. And that's when i realized that I was falling into that slump...Soooo..right here, right now...I'm letting it go.

..mirrors

...at the barre, in first position, i warm up...with so much confidence...but those mirrors..today those mirrors slapped me in the face..its like, you can block so many things out and tell yourself you're beautiful, you're a nice size, you've got talent...but its when you stand in front of those mirrors...you stare truth straight in the eyes..I see why dancers are the way they are..I see why we're such perfectionist...no one can see the truth as much as we do..

Planning?..NO!

Every single day i aquire more knowledge than the day prior..and i learn... about life, friends,...myself. And I have derived that my biggest mistake has been giving way to much of myself...and in most cases, just to see others happy. And at some points Ive been way too diaphanous. However, there are definetly NO regrets...for I have discovered so many truths, so many fakes...and life has ultimately unveiled itself..

This weekend was ridiculously "off"..to say the least. and I can't believe that i am at all surprised. One thing i have learned about MY life is that i really shouldn't plan things...they NEVER go as planned..EVER...from planning to wash the dishes..to planning a trip to Europe..i just really shouldnt plan..
I find it very...comedic?..When i first decided that i was going to Puerto Rico..i began planning like 6 mths in advance..which u have to if you're going to have a decent and orderly trip anywhere...LOL..I was terrified..No matter how much things would fall into place..in the back of my head i knew it was going to eventually fall apart..The day before we left... i really believe i had been holding my breath for those 6 mths...I smiled for the first time since i decided on the trip because amazingly...it was all still working smoothly and i was boarding the plane the next day...well..i shouldnt have exhaled so early...haha..just a few hrs before it was time to leave...the tickets were taken and so was passports and some of our luggage...and i couldnt even be upset..All i could do was laugh and tell myself.."I told you soo!"..I now look back at my Puerto Rico pictures and souveiners and actually cherish them...it was just about the only thing in life that i planned and worked out...although we got our things bk and were able to depart..i was terrifed..i knew that plane would crash or id be held hostage by terrorist or something...lol
My life has been filled with indelible moments that has placed all of these little dimples on my face :))