There will be times when our heart is going to hurt so bad

and everything inside feels like its being twisted and pulled apart.

& you won't be able to breathe because the pain is too much.

& you'll cry until theres nothing left.

the dark will seem at its darkest & your heart will feel like its in a million peices.

In those moments i want you to remember a few things...

God will never put more on you than you can bare

Even if it feels like he has remember you're still alive..

he loves you so remember that if he allowed you to go through it

he knew that you could

he had already prepared you to be strong enough

remember that pain won't last forever

& every tough moment in life is preparation for a new lesson.

I promise that if you just hold on a little longer sweetie

the morning will come and the sun is going to shine

& soon enough everything will make sense.

& i pinky promise that you're going to be so much stronger

and so much wiser.

so hold on beautiful

just hold on

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definitely time for a new post!

Its so beautiful to sit back and watch life unfold....

Growing up I remember telling myself so many times

"Someday, this will all make sense."

& i know now that i was right

I never understood why i had to sacrifice so much

& i never understood why i had to lose such dear ppl

everything in my life seemed so intangible 

But i finally understand...

Although it may have hurt, ive gone through things

so that id be able to understand, i mean truly understand and help others..

I can relate to so many ppl now due to things i had to endure..

I can tell them i understand and truly mean it..

So often i wondered why i couldnt just be like some and have a normal life

... i was born to stand out... 

my favorite quote is

"It takes courage to be different"

Truly it does

Its not easy being different from the norm

deciding not to conform and sticking to what you truly believe

Stop trying to fit in if its not what you were born to do..

my life has been a beacon of hope for people

& because of that..i wouldnt change a thing in my past!

No matter how far you go or how crazy things may be,

you can always go back to that little place

when you were young and your mind was pure..

it was then that you were you in rare form

Go back to that place and remember who that person was

and never lose grip of that person...

No need to rush.... life is unfolding just as it should

Wishing you all the love in your days and sparkly things to make you smile :)

written with love

Living Simply

... Late nights, its quiet. Its just you.

I find myself here a lot lately... more than id wish.

There are nights when I could use a nice conversation

or a good laugh.

Many nights, i just want to be held and feel another warm body next to mine.

I long to feel that strong, but gentle embrace of a man.

Ahh... but its just me. No one else

So I try to make the best of it or else ill just sit there 

and listen to the all the thoughts running in my head

Last night, I took a nice warm shower and put on my favorite pajamas.

I love the feel of fresh cool linen... makes me feel all fuzzy

I grabbed my favorite bear, Barnsie, and put on The Backup Plan.

I laughed so hard my belly was aching by the time the movie ended.

I fluffed my pillow, took a deep breath, smiled, and fell fast asleep.

Bless my little Barnsie, he keeps me company many nights.

Im learning to live simply.

Nothing more, nothing less.

Often, we sit and over analyze every detail!

Drive ourselves crazy really

but who cares

just let it all go, take a deep breath, smile, and live simply

the world is unfolding just as it should.

Where you are may not be where you want to be,

but you can make the best of it

until you get where you're trying to go.

Wishing you simplicity, butterflies, and shimmery things that make you smile!

Treated myself today to this cutsie little sundae.

Normally my post are mainly on things Ive learned. They say
  "on the road to riches, stop and take pictures because life's not about where you end up, but what you've learned along the way"

So this blog is kind of like my pictures of life along the way. 

Over this past weekend, I was surrounded with 42 of my very amazing friends. I never thought it was possible for 42 ppl to come together and truly love each other. One of them made the statement,
"We didn't become friends, we became family."
He was so right. They are my family.
This past year has been one of the most difficult and challenging years Ive ever been through. Many times I felt so alone and lost in this crazy thing we call life.
However, this past weekend I learned something.
It took a 28 hr bus ride and 5 days with these 42 very amazing people to realize that
no, life will not always be tulips and daisies, and often the rain is going to pour, but what life does do, is in those really crazy moments, it sends us butterflies and rainbows
to remind us that even through darkness, beauty still lives.
They are my butterflies and rainbows.
& they make life worth living.
They never judge me, they always listen.
We all go through the same things and thats a good thing to know.
We cry together, we laugh until we can't breathe, we disagree just like family.
& create the most indelible memories together .
We teach each other that life is not as bad as it seems
and no matter how hard things may get
"Its fine..."
So when you reach those low moments in life, step away for a second & look around
Somewhere, I promise, your butterflies & rainbows are there...waiting :)

you are AMazinG

Its so amazing to see actually see and feel yourself growing up.

Everyday new things happen

& everyday another lesson is learned..

When i start getting beside myself, something comes and humbles me.

I want to simply live

& be happy

& spread happiness and laughter.

I noticed that sometimes we get so lost 

and we let things have the best of us.

& at times we feel like the entire world is falling right on top of our heads...

but the best peace is found in chaos. 

Stop and smell the flowers.

wiggle your toes

lay in the grass and stare endlessly into the sky

count the stars

At times we may not feel good enough

but trust me, you are amazing.

you are so unique and you were put here for a reason

just relax 

the universe is unfolding just as it should.

& you have a right to be here.

"When life says, 'Give up' hope whispers, 'Try it one more time.'"

with all my love :)

That Inevitable Collapse

I awoke this morning to my phone going crazy and when I realized it was the alarm, "You can not be serious." I Was not ready at all to conquer today. Just wanted to stay there. That pretty light was shining in my room. I love that light. You know the one right when the sun is coming up, but its really cloudy so the light is like bluish- grey. Its not bright yellow-orange, the one that wakes you up. Its the mellow one. :) I suppose Im really beginning to appreciate the little things. Anywho, I remained there for a while doing my usual morning thinking and I embraced just being alive. So I was thinking this morning on my drive to work, I have this feeling of incompetence. Its like walking on a bridge, knowing that its going to collapse and knowing exactly where but you are forced to continue walking. You can not turn back and you can't stay where you are. Its inevitable. That's when I question, "What do we do when incompetence is inevitable?" And seriously, I told myself, " You only have two choices Brittany. You either give up never knowing if you could have done it or you keep walking knowing that bridge is going to collapse, but also knowing that you were created strong enough to climb through the ruble and keep going. And even if you fall flat on your face... you tried." That's pretty much how life works. You either do or you don't and you accept the consequences of your decision. Well, I mostly certainly know that I choose to try because I simply can not deal with the fact of not knowing. So call the National Guard!

One's In The Air...

... so im not invincible, nope. Its christmas eve and Im just sitting here listening to the perfect playlist. "I am more than what you bargained for and nothing less than real. & hey, no Im not perfect."-Drake.
somewhere down the line I figured out that there is not perfect way to live your life. You can only live it one day at a time. Because each day will teach you something new. Stop thinking you have it all figured out because i guarantee you, you will discover something new next week. And yes, Im going to take my own advise. I get to this point where Im like, "Ive found myself." But then I fall, I get back up, and hey... Ive found myself again. Nope...that makes no sense. So once again... I quit. Not trying to figure it out anymore. We're going to make mistakes because we're human. Just have enough pride in yourself to learn from them. This is me. This is who I am. Like it, Love it, Hate it....thats on you. Take it or leave it. That goes to me too. I belong right where you see me. That is all. Love generously, feel passionately, and live. Just live. & move on.